Prayer

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Mark 11:24

Good mornin y’all!

This week’s is kinda short because I’m on vacation in Georgia and haven’t had time to write much. 🙂

I grew up knowing prayer was important and that it worked but until about 3 weeks ago I never prayed to get things done. A couple of weeks ago I met up with a woman who prayed over me and when I say she prayed I mean she PRAYED over me, and I have never felt the Holy Spirit like that before. We talked for hours about prayer and I learned so much in that time.

Let me tell you prayer works, sometimes the answer is yes, no, or wait, but it always works. I’ve seen God move in big big ways recently:

  1. My depression/anxiety/PTSD have been not, non existent but more under control  and that is 100% because of prayer.
  2. I’ve been praying for some closure on something that happened nearly 12 years ago, it came in a very hard and unexpected way, but I handled it better than me or anyone else would’ve expected and that is completely because of prayer as well.

Here’s the deal with prayer though, you have to believe that God can and will do it, for years I prayed because that’s what I was supposed to do, I prayed knowing I God could hear me, I prayed knowing he could do it, but I didn’t pray believing He would. Now I’m not promising that every prayer you pray will come true exactly how you pray it, because God knows better than we do, and that is a very good thing, because sometimes I’ll be praying for something to happen and after a little bit of time passes I am so glad it didn’t and that God knew better.

God is big and powerful and good. God Loves you and wants and knows what is best for you. So pray, believe, and watch Him move, and accept what He deems best for you!

Love y’all!

-Noelle

 

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Polaris ⭐️ 

All my hope by Hillsong


Good mornin y’all, I hope your week was full of laughter and love.

Polaris is the North Star, it is the only star that remains stationary aka it is constant, it is always there, it never leaves, even if it is cloudy and you can’t see it, it is still there. Some of you might have caught on to where I’m going with this, polaris is a metaphor for God. He is there in the cloudy stormy days, He is there when you can’t see him, He never leaves.

A few years ago, during a pretty rough time in my life I was at Youthfront (where I am currently summer staffing aka my favorite place on earth), on the way back to our cabin we could see the stars really well and one of my cabin leader’s told me to look up, she pointed out the brightest star, and said “that is polaris, it is always there. So whenever you feel like God has left, look up and remember that He is constant and will never leave, He will shine in the darkness of your life.” Those words have stuck with me for years. We also would talk about this subject at the beginning of the school year with my youth group in high school. It was always a good reminder that the Lord is good and constant through anything. When I am struggling with feeling like God has left, I look up and it is a good visual reminder that He is there.

When I moved to college 2 years ago, I knew my friend, my then boyfriend, and parents would leave after dropping me off, but it felt like God got in the car with them and said peace out, good luck. All of that first semester it felt like the Lord had left me completely alone, I struggled so much for those long 4 months. Second semester I went to a concert that had the singer Colton Dixon, he was singing a song I’d heard a thousand times, but in that moment, singing with thousands of other believers one set of lyrics stuck out to me: “I let go of your hand to help you understand, with you all along, I was never gone.” In that moment I realized that even though it felt like the Lord had left me, He hadn’t He had simply taken a step back so that I would seek Him more, He’d been holding my hand through the rough parts of my life and now that I was safe He had stepped back.

There have been many times in my life where it felt like God had left me, but even in those times He was there. His presence is not dependent on our emotions or our feelings of whether He is there or not. He is always there, sometimes we just need to seek him more.

God is the only constant in life, I’ve had friends leave, family leave, things and people I thought would always be in my life that are no longer there, but in every situation The Lord has been and always will be my only constant.

He is there for you. No matter what you are going through I promise He is there even when it doesn’t feel like, and He is always will be.

Always by Kristian Stanfill


Trust in him, He’s got this.

Love y’all!💕

~Noelle

Never Gone by Colton Dixon


 

Depression

Matthew 17:20


Good morning pals! I hope y’all’s week has been wonderful!

Depression, in the church a lot of the time it is kind of a taboo subject, but it shouldn’t be. It’s real, it’s an illness, and it sucks…a lot. It can make you feel numb, hopeless, completely unmotivated, unworthy, unimportant, not good enough; it can make getting out of bed, showering, brushing your teeth, eating, walking up a flight of stairs, talking to another person, doing simple tasks all seem like an impossible mission. Bad dark spells can last for hours or even months.

This week and especially weekend my depression was the worst it had been in a very long time. This weekend I was completely alone, which triggers my depression so add that to an already rough week, it got so bad that I was actually fearful I wouldn’t make it through. I’ve struggled with self harm since I was 12, and haven’t cut in almost a year but I was very tempted to this weekend. On Sunday I decided that I was going to shower and get dressed and go on an adventure even if I was alone (which I turned out to be), because usually both showers and adventures help. I decided to drive around KC until I found something pretty to take pictures of (I’m attempting get into photography) I ended up finding a cool area downtown, I was up on a bridge taking pictures and I strongly considered jumping off, but praise the Lord I didn’t, praise the Lord that every person that I care about ran through my head, praise the Lord that I saw a little girl looking up at me taking pictures, praise the Lord I saw a butterfly that made me remember how beautiful God’s artwork is. Right after I got off the bridge, I ended up running into one of my friends. He had no clue that I was struggling, or what I had come so close to doing moments before, but just seeing someone that I knew cared about me was a total God send.  I still was not doing well at all when I got back to camp, so I texted a woman that the same friend had suggested I meet with, because she mentors young ladies. She talked with me and prayed over me/with me and y’all I have never felt the Holy Spirit like that before. The Lord is good and he knew exactly what I needed even at my darkest times, ever since she prayed over me I have been filled with joy and peace that can only come from the Lord.

Whatever you are going through please know the Lord is there, please know that God is good, and only good things come from him, illness is bad and therefore pray to the Lord for him to take it away, in the name of Jesus, and believe that He will do it. “Truly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be taken up and thrown into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that what he says will come to pass, it will be done for him. Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.” Mark 11: 23-24

Also if you are struggling with depression or thoughts of self harm Please stay, please know you are loved, that you are enough, please know that you are here for a purpose if you are struggling with that (or any thing else for that matter) I would love to pray for you/with you. You can message me on Facebook Noelle Joy Burke. 

LOVE Y’ALL

~Noelle 

Jeremiah 29:12

Love 💕

Good morning lovely ladies and gentlemen, I hope that your week has been good, and I hope that your long weekend was relaxing. 
Love, we use it pretty loosely a lot of the time; I love pizza, I love that band, I love that shirt, etc. But love is a tiny word with huge meaning. 

Now don’t get me wrong you’ll hear me say I love *insert object* a lot, but I shouldn’t if I don’t actually love the thing. You’ll also hear me say I love *insert person* and that I mean with every bone in my body, I love my friends like most people do, I love my family also like most people do. But I am very quick to love, I’ve told a new friend that I loved them after less than 24 hours of knowing them, and I do. I would tell my cabin full of campers last year that I loved them every night and I did, with all of my heart. Obviously we all have different levels/types of love. When I told my campers or friends I loved them I didn’t want to marry them, obviously a friend that I’ve known for 7 years vs. 24 hours I love on a deeper level because I’ve known them longer. And obviously there is romantic love which is a whole different kind. 

This weekend I was in my first wedding, and it happened to be my best friend’s. I’ve known her since 6th or 7th grade, I love her so much and I am so happy she has found a man that loves her like she deserves. Their wedding was full of love, the ceremony was performed by the groom’s mentor/father figure, during the ceremony not only did they exchange vows saying how much they loved each other, but they demonstrated it by washing each other’s feet. The reception had so many toasts and speeches full of love, and you could feel the love all around the room. 

As christians we have the perfect example of love; “this is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers and sisters” 1 john 3:16

Here’s the deal, firstly you don’t know what everyone else is going through so you don’t know who needs love, you don’t know if you are the only person that is giving them love. Secondly you don’t know how long that person has, so if you love them in any way tell them. Life is short, love hard and love well. But doing that doesn’t come without pain, when you love hard and fast you will get hurt, and it’ll hurt badly, but you have to keep loving, just as Christ loves us. 

1 Corinthians 13:4-7


Love y’all,

~Noelle 

Here’s my Heart


Good morning friends! I hope that you’re week has been filled with joy that only the Holy Spirit can give!

So on Monday night I started my summer at Youthfront Camp West, for those of you who know me, or who have read my blogs you know that Youthfront has been a huge influence on my life for over 7 years now. This is my second summer on staff, and I could not be more excited. However, as I was preparing for camp this year I didn’t feel like I was totally in the right mindset, I had so many things to do before camp, leave my job, pack up my apartment and move into my house for the fall, clean my apartment, pack for camp, etc. I was so stressed preparing physically for all of this that I had forgotten to prepare my heart for camp. This year because I am a returner, I am a leader (or so I’ve been told even if it doesn’t quite feel like it.) Also I am in a different position this year, which gives me more time to pour into other staff’s lives, So I knew that I would be one of the ones welcoming and encouraging  the new people I knew I would be and wanted to be one of the one’s who throughout the summer talked to other staff and asked how I could be praying for them and then did it, I wanted to be able to see how and when people were struggling and find ways to encourage them. But my heart wasn’t in it yet. Maybe it was because it felt like camp came so quickly, or maybe it was the devil but either way my to do list had gotten in the way of preparing for camp spiritually.

But at the end of last week it came to my attention how quickly camp was approaching and how my heart was not there yet. So this weekend all the way to when I arrived at camp on Monday evening I found myself praying over and over, “Lord let this summer be for you, and you’re glory, let me be an encouragement to fellow staff, campers, teen staff, and parents, and above all Lord here is my heart, take it and do you’re will.” It was one of those prayers that just kind of comes out without you really thinking about it, like the Lord is speaking right through you. But as I was saying it the first time, I wanted with all of my heart for it to be true. I wanted the Lord to take my heart and do his will, no matter what that looked like. I don’t know if you’ve ever prayed a prayer like that, but it’s scary because he is God and when I say whatever, he could do literally whatever, but that goes back to last week’s blog about trusting him.

So I know probably most of you aren’t at camp right now, but I hope that wherever you are you give God you’re heart to do his will, no matter what. Because guys, he’s God so ya it’s scary to say do whatever, but his plan is so so much better than ours ever could be, so it’s gonna be great!

Love y’all!

~Noelle

Trust 


Good morning friends, I hope you all have a had a wonderful week!! Also two blogs in one week!! Wohoo!
Life can be scary and stressful, but we have a good God who has never and will never forsake us. Right now I’m putting all my trust in the Lord as I’m about to go to camp, while paying rent and monthly bills which is going to make life quite stressful and money quite tight this summer. But I am remembering that he has always and will always provide for me, he’s never failed me and He promised that he won’t. I know that camp is where God wants me, I know that it’s going to be great. But right now all I can think about is everything I have to do before camp, everything I have to pay for, and will I have enough money for everything. 

If you’re going through something similar, whether it’s because you are doing something new and the transition will cost, or whether that’s just the stage of life you’re in, remember that it’s going to be ok because God is faithful, and sovereign and he will take care of you. I’m not saying it’ll be easy, but God will take care of you.

  • 2 Samuel 7:28 “Sovereign LORD, you are God! Your covenant is trustworthy, and you have promised these good things to your servant.”
  • Psalm 31:14 “But I trust in you, LORD; I say, “You are my God.”
  • Psalm 56:3 When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.

Sovereign (lyrics) 2013 Chris Tomlin – YouTube

Lauren Daigle – Trust In You – YouTube 

Oceans (Where Feet May FaiI) – YouTube

Whatever you are going through in life remember the Lord is faithful, remember to trust in him and everything will be ok.

Love y’all!

~Noelle

Mother’s Day


Good morning and happy Mother’s day to all the moms!

Every year we set aside one day to thank all of the mothers in our lives, it’s a very important day, but also a hard day for many. Some have lost their mothers, some don’t have a relationship with theirs, some have been hurt so deeply by their mom that watching all the happy moms and kids is like pouring lemon juice into a cut, some of them know it’s their last Mother’s day with a mom or as a mom, and some are mothers without their babies because they gave them up for adoption, they were taken away, or because they’re fighting for our freedom, or maybe their babies (no matter what age their child was when they died) live in heaven.

For those of you that have read my story that I posted a few weeks ago, or if you know me in person, you probably know that this day is hard for me, because in October of 2015 I had an early miscarriage. I am not proud of the fact that I had sex before marriage, and so I hid my miscarriage from most people for over a year. But I realized we all have our mistakes and they are part of our story so I begin sharing mine.  I didn’t know I was pregnant beforehand,and so I didn’t get to know my baby and because of that people have told me I don’t get to grieve, or ask me why do I even care? One person in particular made me feel (and even told me I was) crazy for caring, and for naming a baby I never met. But let me tell you why I get to grieve, and why I care, because I believe life starts at conception and therefore even though I didn’t know until it was too late, I had a baby which makes me a mom. Because of that I named my baby, Davin Autumn which means much loved, born in the fall. I’ll never know if my baby was a boy or a girl, if they would have been tall or short, what their laugh or cry would’ve sounded like. But I know this, I love them with all of my heart, even though I didn’t get to meet them, even though they live in heaven.

Because my miscarriage was so early, and because I didn’t tell many people, I had no closure. But a couple of weeks ago my sweet and talented roommate helped me get a little bit. I released some balloons with a letter to my sweet baby and some bible verses attached, and my roommate photographed it. Whether Davin can see them or not I don’t know, but I know that it helped me, I know that it was therapeutic for me . Now I have a little bit of closure (all that I will ever get).


So there’s some more of my story, I hope that if today is hard for you, you will reach out to a friend and not be alone, if you need to talk please know that I am here for you God gave me 2 pretty great ears, whether I know you or not. Below is a song that I love by JJ Heller called “Oliviana” https://youtu.be/fFh2RloTtpY

Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.” Matthew 5:4

To all the mommies, happy Mother’s day just in case nobody tells you

Much love to all y’all💛❤️

~Noelle