Good mornin’ y’all!
It’s been a hot minute since I’ve blogged, in fact it hasn’t been since last year (sorry I had to say it, even though its a not funny, overly used New Year’s pun). But I truly hope you had a wonderful Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year’s. I also hope your 2018 is off to a wonderful start!
I got a new mug this weekend (pictured above), and it inspired this post. The Lord used this mug, in a store to get a hold of me because I had distanced myself from Him for a couple of weeks and wasn’t listening to Him. Isn’t it funny what God uses to reach us sometimes, because we wont listen and then get mad at Him for being ‘distant’.
.Something that I’ve struggled with for as long as I can remember is trying to be enough for everyone around me. I’ve never felt like I could achieve that. I was trying to please my parents, my teachers, my sister, my friends, my grandparents, my church, The Lord, and I always came in last. I also let what others said and thought of me and what they did add to my feelings of not measuring up to everyone’s expectations.
I’ve connived myself that the reason people acted a certain way is because I wasn’t good enough, I was asking for too much, I was too clingy or too annoying. I thought this earlier this week and my sister sent something to me that said, “You aren’t asking for too much you just aren’t asking the right person.” That really hit home and made me stop and think, God created me and gave me my personality, I am the only me, so if somebody doesn’t think I’m good enough why should I care? Nobody can please everybody all the time, and that is ok! Because the only person who’s approval we need is God’s and He gave it to me when I ask Jesus to be my savior, and He will give it to you if you do the same. And the one and only person we should be concerned about pleasing is God.
Naturally we are going to want to please our friends and family, and that is good and healthy to an extent, because we respect them and we are supposed to obey. But if it is constantly draining and you feel like you can never measure up, look upand remember that God says you were bought by His one and only son’s blood and that is enough! You are enough! No matter what anybody says or does (Ladies did you hear me?! NO MATTER WHAT A GUY SAYS OR DOES YOU ARE ENOUGH!) No matter what you have done, or what has been done to you, and if somebody doesn’t agree then they just aren’t the right person. “For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works,which God prepared in advance for us to do.” Ephesian 2:10
In the past year and a half I have especially struggled with wondering if I could ever be good enough for my church or my family, but especially if I could ever be good enough to meet a wonderful Christian man to fall in love with and have a family with. After all I’m not the ‘perfect’ christian girl everybody thought I was. I’m too much to handle, after all I have depression, anxiety, PTSD, Rheumatoid Arthritis, not to mention, I didn’t save myself for marriage, I’ve had a miscarriage and I was raped. I am broken, could I ever be good enough for a good man to want me? the answer is, of course! Because we all make mistakes, we all have things we regret, we all have baggage, we are all cracked or broken and if the creator of the universe who has never sinned can look at me and say: I forgive you, I want you, I love you, I fixed you, I made you clean, you are redeemed. Then so can any human, even though I know that sometimes it’s still hard to believe. But it is true for me and for you, all you need is God. Below is the link to one of my favorite songs, Jamie Grace’s “Daughter of the King” the first time I heard this song I started sobbing because sometimes I get so caught up this world that I forget God isn’t just my savior, He is my daddy, and The King of Kings making me that daughter of a King and you too (son is you are a guy).
I hope that this reminded you, that you are enough and you are not alone.