God Is Fighting For US

Hey y’all, I hope the last two weeks have been great! As you can see I’m bad at time management and failed at writing last week once again. 

Something that the Lord has been teaching me recently is finding comfort in Him. The past few weeks have been pretty rough for me, and my anxiety/PTSD have been awful. I had to face some big scary things from my past and will be dealing with them indefinitely, and it is causing me to have awful nightmares and sleepless nights. So even more than usual I am having to trust in the Lord and trust that He is the ultimate protector and will keep me safe. He is bigger than my anxiety and my panic attacks.

This week at church, during worship we sang several songs that were about praising the Lord in trials and hardships, and that the Lord is fighting for us, even when we don’t know it. It doesn’t matter where we are or what is happening because God is bigger and greater. The last couple of weeks it kind of felt like the Lord wasn’t fighting for me,  and I was continuously crying out to him, asking why all of this was happening to me, and while I still don’t know the answer and while I still don’t like it, I know that He is fighting for me, He is keeping me safe, He has everything under control and has a plan for it, and will never ever leave me. I also know that He has provided me with amazing friends and an amazing community to help support me during this. But no matter how great that community is, or how great those friends are, they can’t comfort me like God can, He is the ultimate protecter, and comforter.

So whatever you are going through, whatever feels like the Lord has abandoned you, remember that He is fighting for you in ways that you don’t even know and remember that He is the best protector we could ever have.  Find comfort and rest in the Lord this week.

Love y’all!

~Noelle

Exodus 14:14

Strength💪🏻

Good evening folks 🙂

Last week was crazy and honestly I was just lazy and didn’t make time to blog, this week has been less crazy but I have been more lazy and so I’m just now getting to it.

Strength, we all have different amounts of physical and emotional strength. I have very little physical strength and can barely pick up anything, but I know people who can easily pick up something that I can barely move, some of that is God given and some is because they have decided that working out and building muscle is something that is important to them and they have worked hard to build strong muscles. However I’ve been told and I like to believe that I am fairly strong when it comes to emotional strength. In both cases I know people who are weaker and who are stronger than me, in both cases some of it you are born with and some of it you have to work to get.

Recently I have a new found strength, it is 100% because I am relying on the Lord more, and on other people less. This is the first time in years that I have been single for any length of time, and I recently realized that I was relying on a boy’s strength instead of my own, but more importantly instead of God’s strength. When I think about it now, and say it out loud it sounds silly that I was relying on a human’s strength when I could have been relying on God, who is stronger and more powerful that we could ever imagine. But we all do it, we all try and fix things without God’s help, we try and handle things on our own, or we talk to our friends and they try to not only carry their burdens, but also ours.  Guys I do it too, but we’re actually idiots, we can’t carry our burdens much less other people’s but we have such a big and awesome God who not only can, but wants to.

If you are feeling weak, remember that He is oh so strong, and He is there for you and will carry you through the hard times, and with Him you can be strong, keep fighting friends!

Love y’all 🙂

-Noelle

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Matthew 11:28

 

Prayer

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Mark 11:24

Good mornin y’all!

This week’s is kinda short because I’m on vacation in Georgia and haven’t had time to write much. 🙂

I grew up knowing prayer was important and that it worked but until about 3 weeks ago I never prayed to get things done. A couple of weeks ago I met up with a woman who prayed over me and when I say she prayed I mean she PRAYED over me, and I have never felt the Holy Spirit like that before. We talked for hours about prayer and I learned so much in that time.

Let me tell you prayer works, sometimes the answer is yes, no, or wait, but it always works. I’ve seen God move in big big ways recently:

  1. My depression/anxiety/PTSD have been not, non existent but more under control  and that is 100% because of prayer.
  2. I’ve been praying for some closure on something that happened nearly 12 years ago, it came in a very hard and unexpected way, but I handled it better than me or anyone else would’ve expected and that is completely because of prayer as well.

Here’s the deal with prayer though, you have to believe that God can and will do it, for years I prayed because that’s what I was supposed to do, I prayed knowing I God could hear me, I prayed knowing he could do it, but I didn’t pray believing He would. Now I’m not promising that every prayer you pray will come true exactly how you pray it, because God knows better than we do, and that is a very good thing, because sometimes I’ll be praying for something to happen and after a little bit of time passes I am so glad it didn’t and that God knew better.

God is big and powerful and good. God Loves you and wants and knows what is best for you. So pray, believe, and watch Him move, and accept what He deems best for you!

Love y’all!

-Noelle

 

Polaris ⭐️ 

All my hope by Hillsong


Good mornin y’all, I hope your week was full of laughter and love.

Polaris is the North Star, it is the only star that remains stationary aka it is constant, it is always there, it never leaves, even if it is cloudy and you can’t see it, it is still there. Some of you might have caught on to where I’m going with this, polaris is a metaphor for God. He is there in the cloudy stormy days, He is there when you can’t see him, He never leaves.

A few years ago, during a pretty rough time in my life I was at Youthfront (where I am currently summer staffing aka my favorite place on earth), on the way back to our cabin we could see the stars really well and one of my cabin leader’s told me to look up, she pointed out the brightest star, and said “that is polaris, it is always there. So whenever you feel like God has left, look up and remember that He is constant and will never leave, He will shine in the darkness of your life.” Those words have stuck with me for years. We also would talk about this subject at the beginning of the school year with my youth group in high school. It was always a good reminder that the Lord is good and constant through anything. When I am struggling with feeling like God has left, I look up and it is a good visual reminder that He is there.

When I moved to college 2 years ago, I knew my friend, my then boyfriend, and parents would leave after dropping me off, but it felt like God got in the car with them and said peace out, good luck. All of that first semester it felt like the Lord had left me completely alone, I struggled so much for those long 4 months. Second semester I went to a concert that had the singer Colton Dixon, he was singing a song I’d heard a thousand times, but in that moment, singing with thousands of other believers one set of lyrics stuck out to me: “I let go of your hand to help you understand, with you all along, I was never gone.” In that moment I realized that even though it felt like the Lord had left me, He hadn’t He had simply taken a step back so that I would seek Him more, He’d been holding my hand through the rough parts of my life and now that I was safe He had stepped back.

There have been many times in my life where it felt like God had left me, but even in those times He was there. His presence is not dependent on our emotions or our feelings of whether He is there or not. He is always there, sometimes we just need to seek him more.

God is the only constant in life, I’ve had friends leave, family leave, things and people I thought would always be in my life that are no longer there, but in every situation The Lord has been and always will be my only constant.

He is there for you. No matter what you are going through I promise He is there even when it doesn’t feel like, and He is always will be.

Always by Kristian Stanfill


Trust in him, He’s got this.

Love y’all!💕

~Noelle

Never Gone by Colton Dixon


 

Depression

Matthew 17:20


Good morning pals! I hope y’all’s week has been wonderful!

Depression, in the church a lot of the time it is kind of a taboo subject, but it shouldn’t be. It’s real, it’s an illness, and it sucks…a lot. It can make you feel numb, hopeless, completely unmotivated, unworthy, unimportant, not good enough; it can make getting out of bed, showering, brushing your teeth, eating, walking up a flight of stairs, talking to another person, doing simple tasks all seem like an impossible mission. Bad dark spells can last for hours or even months.

This week and especially weekend my depression was the worst it had been in a very long time. This weekend I was completely alone, which triggers my depression so add that to an already rough week, it got so bad that I was actually fearful I wouldn’t make it through. I’ve struggled with self harm since I was 12, and haven’t cut in almost a year but I was very tempted to this weekend. On Sunday I decided that I was going to shower and get dressed and go on an adventure even if I was alone (which I turned out to be), because usually both showers and adventures help. I decided to drive around KC until I found something pretty to take pictures of (I’m attempting get into photography) I ended up finding a cool area downtown, I was up on a bridge taking pictures and I strongly considered jumping off, but praise the Lord I didn’t, praise the Lord that every person that I care about ran through my head, praise the Lord that I saw a little girl looking up at me taking pictures, praise the Lord I saw a butterfly that made me remember how beautiful God’s artwork is. Right after I got off the bridge, I ended up running into one of my friends. He had no clue that I was struggling, or what I had come so close to doing moments before, but just seeing someone that I knew cared about me was a total God send.  I still was not doing well at all when I got back to camp, so I texted a woman that the same friend had suggested I meet with, because she mentors young ladies. She talked with me and prayed over me/with me and y’all I have never felt the Holy Spirit like that before. The Lord is good and he knew exactly what I needed even at my darkest times, ever since she prayed over me I have been filled with joy and peace that can only come from the Lord.

Whatever you are going through please know the Lord is there, please know that God is good, and only good things come from him, illness is bad and therefore pray to the Lord for him to take it away, in the name of Jesus, and believe that He will do it. “Truly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be taken up and thrown into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that what he says will come to pass, it will be done for him. Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.” Mark 11: 23-24

Also if you are struggling with depression or thoughts of self harm Please stay, please know you are loved, that you are enough, please know that you are here for a purpose if you are struggling with that (or any thing else for that matter) I would love to pray for you/with you. You can message me on Facebook Noelle Joy Burke. 

LOVE Y’ALL

~Noelle 

Jeremiah 29:12

Love 💕

Good morning lovely ladies and gentlemen, I hope that your week has been good, and I hope that your long weekend was relaxing. 
Love, we use it pretty loosely a lot of the time; I love pizza, I love that band, I love that shirt, etc. But love is a tiny word with huge meaning. 

Now don’t get me wrong you’ll hear me say I love *insert object* a lot, but I shouldn’t if I don’t actually love the thing. You’ll also hear me say I love *insert person* and that I mean with every bone in my body, I love my friends like most people do, I love my family also like most people do. But I am very quick to love, I’ve told a new friend that I loved them after less than 24 hours of knowing them, and I do. I would tell my cabin full of campers last year that I loved them every night and I did, with all of my heart. Obviously we all have different levels/types of love. When I told my campers or friends I loved them I didn’t want to marry them, obviously a friend that I’ve known for 7 years vs. 24 hours I love on a deeper level because I’ve known them longer. And obviously there is romantic love which is a whole different kind. 

This weekend I was in my first wedding, and it happened to be my best friend’s. I’ve known her since 6th or 7th grade, I love her so much and I am so happy she has found a man that loves her like she deserves. Their wedding was full of love, the ceremony was performed by the groom’s mentor/father figure, during the ceremony not only did they exchange vows saying how much they loved each other, but they demonstrated it by washing each other’s feet. The reception had so many toasts and speeches full of love, and you could feel the love all around the room. 

As christians we have the perfect example of love; “this is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers and sisters” 1 john 3:16

Here’s the deal, firstly you don’t know what everyone else is going through so you don’t know who needs love, you don’t know if you are the only person that is giving them love. Secondly you don’t know how long that person has, so if you love them in any way tell them. Life is short, love hard and love well. But doing that doesn’t come without pain, when you love hard and fast you will get hurt, and it’ll hurt badly, but you have to keep loving, just as Christ loves us. 

1 Corinthians 13:4-7


Love y’all,

~Noelle 

Here’s my Heart


Good morning friends! I hope that you’re week has been filled with joy that only the Holy Spirit can give!

So on Monday night I started my summer at Youthfront Camp West, for those of you who know me, or who have read my blogs you know that Youthfront has been a huge influence on my life for over 7 years now. This is my second summer on staff, and I could not be more excited. However, as I was preparing for camp this year I didn’t feel like I was totally in the right mindset, I had so many things to do before camp, leave my job, pack up my apartment and move into my house for the fall, clean my apartment, pack for camp, etc. I was so stressed preparing physically for all of this that I had forgotten to prepare my heart for camp. This year because I am a returner, I am a leader (or so I’ve been told even if it doesn’t quite feel like it.) Also I am in a different position this year, which gives me more time to pour into other staff’s lives, So I knew that I would be one of the ones welcoming and encouraging  the new people I knew I would be and wanted to be one of the one’s who throughout the summer talked to other staff and asked how I could be praying for them and then did it, I wanted to be able to see how and when people were struggling and find ways to encourage them. But my heart wasn’t in it yet. Maybe it was because it felt like camp came so quickly, or maybe it was the devil but either way my to do list had gotten in the way of preparing for camp spiritually.

But at the end of last week it came to my attention how quickly camp was approaching and how my heart was not there yet. So this weekend all the way to when I arrived at camp on Monday evening I found myself praying over and over, “Lord let this summer be for you, and you’re glory, let me be an encouragement to fellow staff, campers, teen staff, and parents, and above all Lord here is my heart, take it and do you’re will.” It was one of those prayers that just kind of comes out without you really thinking about it, like the Lord is speaking right through you. But as I was saying it the first time, I wanted with all of my heart for it to be true. I wanted the Lord to take my heart and do his will, no matter what that looked like. I don’t know if you’ve ever prayed a prayer like that, but it’s scary because he is God and when I say whatever, he could do literally whatever, but that goes back to last week’s blog about trusting him.

So I know probably most of you aren’t at camp right now, but I hope that wherever you are you give God you’re heart to do his will, no matter what. Because guys, he’s God so ya it’s scary to say do whatever, but his plan is so so much better than ours ever could be, so it’s gonna be great!

Love y’all!

~Noelle